the road

I will wait in the silence, and i will stay still in the night,
won't take a step, won't make a move
cuz i know i've been here before,
and im begining to know this road.

All these ways they seem so familiar,
I'm so sure ill get there somehow.
Just have to put my trust in you.

Like pouring rain is you love, so clear and pure.
Birds never fall to earth withuout you knowing.

I want to be whatever it is that i have to,
never thought it would be this hard, but I'm trying.
Its easy when you think you're right,
like all this time.
But now the more i see the more i learn
how far I really am.

The road that winds before me,
the breaths I am to take,
the mornings that await me,
and the dreams I live by night,
all and all my days
are yours forever.

What would be of me if it wasn't for your grace?
Wish I had more faith,
to be so small, to know you so.
Its days like these that I realise,

God, I love you.

I love you

I love you
In the silence, in the darkness
In the chaos, in the madness
All I can think is that
I love you.

I think I rather be the wounded lamb
Than the self sufficient ram
just to be in your arms,
Laying close to you.
So break these walls of pride
Make me soft inside.

How easy I forget
What it took me to get here.
It sure wasn´t my glory,
It sure wasn´t my triumph,
Its only your mercy
that keeps me whole,
And I´m so sorry for forgetting.

I love you
In the joy, in the sunshine
In the clearness, in the victory
All I can think is that
I love you.

Today

Hey, its been a while since my last post, anyway i don´t believe that my blog has a lot of visitors but I don´t care. This is a celebration to freedom of speech.

A lot happened since last December, many changes thank God for good. I truly have understood the meaning of finding your place in the world, and, to my surprise, it was in simplicity. It wasn´t in the big stuff like one always pictures or dreams about, its in the details, in the day by day that you realise that you feel good and you thank God for everything. How many times did I worry excesively thinking that things weren´t the way I wanted them to be o that I hoped that they would be! Like a good friend of mine once said to me, "you have to stop fighting God and the plans that He has for you, just let yourself be lead..." They were words that really made a click in my heart and that everyday I can experience and understand more profoundly. So I did, I let go, I left everything. I reconsidered a couple of things, asked advise to my wise parents and simply started over.

I followed God´s voice and I changed churches and career, even more, I changed my mentality. I changed mi lack of peace, I´m comprehending things and seeing things that I didn´t before. I changed the way of looking at God´s purposes for me and I´m starting to understand them better. I just had to let myself be lead...and quit battling with feelings. I learnt to stop pushing and pressuring myself to be someone God never told me to be. It doesn´t matter how the world sees me anymore, I learnt that to God there are no small purposes nor small people.

Oh, and if you want to know, I started Translation as opsosed to the degree I´ve got in advertisement, completely different (ecxactly) and I´m very happy with the time that I´m living. I´m getting to know really cool people at the new church and I completely agree to what is preached, its like what I´ve always thought in my mind but conceived so dificult to see it in reality. So, I´m still trusting God and I´m very exited for whats coming now. And no, I still don´t have a job, but I know in Whom I have put my trust.

About the shootings

These are terrible terrible news, not just because it's a horible tragedy but because it reveals the state thats part of the church is in today. I read part of Matthew Murray's blog entries and my heart just sinked. It wasn't him who killed those christians it was the same "church of Christ" that did. How? with their hypocresy, their fakeness for not accomplishig the role that God put us here for, with their religiousness and stupid pride. This is the kind of people Jesus was against, not sinners. I don't justify his acts at all, I just feel so sad inside for the reasons he did what he did. His hate wasn't towards God, it was towards the people who were representing God so very very badly. The worst part of it is that everything could have been avoided if just one person gave him the very logical answers he was looking for instead of being more faithful to a human made sistem of "sanctity". I don't want to offend the victim's families or themselves it's not my intention at all because no one deserves what they went through. I'm just saying that we should learn from this and not just think that he was some demon possesed rebel and let´s just keep doing what we are doing, no, what he did was caused because his heart was consumed from hate because he could not stand the hypocresy of the christians he knew, just that he didn't find answers on time. Should we ask ourselves if we are doing something wrong? definitely. It's easy don't call yourself a christian if you are not willing to act like one wholy (that includes gossip, hatred and envy) because it just stains the name of Jesus and it's an insult to His Holy Face. Ask God He will answer. His heart is hurting for his church, and I pray for all of those people who have drawn away from God because of man's doings so this never happens again. And to think that just a few days ago we still had time...

The assemblies of God pronounce against the G12 movement.

The asemblies of God pronounced against the world known G12 movement. It´s not my intention to insult anyone because I love the church of Christ but please if anyone has doubts about it don´t be afraid, search for the truth. Don´t look at your pastors like they are semi gods because they are human and they are here to serve their sheep not the other way around. I think the whole enphasis on multiplication of this movement is strange, I mean where in His word does Jesus tell us to reproduce ourselves in other people? He tells us that it´s Him who should reproduce himself in us (or us imitate Him), besides not everybody is called to leadership like this movement says. Only God calls leaders according to His will and purpose. I think deviating people from their true calling isn´t right. Yes, God will still move and restore people but it´s not the church or the movement that does it only His Holy Spirit. It bothers me that there has to be a human sistem for church growth, why don´t we let the Holy Spirit do it? I believe that if we get to the point of thinking that saying something against the doctrine of Castellanos (founder) is the same as blasfemy against God (read it in Youtube from a member of that church) we are in a very wrong place and it´s time to reevaluate everything , he is not the Holy Spirit and yes, he makes mistakes because like you and I, he is human and we are not and will never be perfect. If in you there is jealousy, envy, greed, hunger for power or pride there is something wrong in your heart (Talking from experience). Oh, by the way, Jesus told us to make disciples as a church not that every christian in the world has to have 12 people in charge not one more not one less (what a truly limited yet ambicious vision). Imagine that we got no other purpose in this world than to have 12 people in charge sound like a cult to me. God is God of order not structures! He has an unique and beautiful plan for each of us His children and these kind of sistems locks us and draws us away from it. Succes in your life will not be measured by the cuantity of disciples you make but in fulfilling the purpose of God for your life, big or small to human eyes.

Primerisima Entrata

Hello, my name is Gabriela and this is my blog. First entries are always tough, so much pressure to achieve a good one intimidates me a bit. I think this is great, being able to write whatever I want and people all over the world having access to it, though I´m not sure who would read it, ah the miracle of Internet. I´m in that in between generation where we were old enough to remember the before WWW era, hey I´m not very old but everything moves so fast these days, in fact I am almost sure that time did physically passed by slower before and it just gets faster with the years, that or being a kid gives everything more value, less work and more amazement to enjoy the little things, or maybe it´s just the city. I live in Buenos Aires, Argentina, been here for four years now, I am native of this beautuful country but this is the first time I remember living in it. I was an international student till graduation, it´s tough moving away every two or in the best cases three years, people who´ve been through this know what I mean. Anyway, If you are still reading this, welcome to a piece of my mind. God Bless.